Less *Spectacular* Blessings

I admit it. I hate New Year’s. It’s a bunch of hoopla that means nothing to me. I’m reminded of another year gone, another year not accomplishing as much as I would love to accomplish. There’s also something about the happy Christmas season being over and the ugly inversion of January settling in. For me, January brings depressive feelings.

I tried this year to focus on other things. It didn’t entirely work. There was still an ugly week. However, I did take time to think deep down about some of the less *spectacular* blessings that happened to me last year. Doing this helped pull me out of my funk somewhat and to feel grateful that my Heavenly Father knows and loves me as an individual spirit with individual needs. 
  • We were able to get outdoors more. My family explored and discovered. Being amongst the Lord’s creations is good for our soul. In an existence of uncertainty and acquisitiveness it brings confidence and content.
  • Rob and I were able to spend a lot of quality time together. We’ve understood each other more. We’ve communicated better. We are both trying to regard the other with more importance.
  • Keeping Caroline home with me (instead of enrolling her in preschool) while the other kids are in school full time has been good for our relationship. I was afraid it would be the end of it but instead we have both benefitted from this time together. She is gaining self-assurance and I’m gaining patience. I’m understanding her more and can better focus on what she needs.
  • After 15 years, I finally had the opportunity to apologize to and reconnect with a long lost friend. I’ve enjoyed getting to know her again and who she has become.
  • I’ve heard (and felt) that being a stay-at-home mom can be isolating and lonely…that it’s hard to connect with other adults. But I feel like there are many women around me to call on when I need a favor or to chat. We look after each other and we have a sense of community that I’ve enjoyed being a part of.
    This year, the less *spectacular* blessing I’m working for are:
    • More decisiveness. To make choices quickly and confidently. 
    • Finality and acceptance regarding something I’ve been pondering on and praying about for a couple of years.
    • The ability to stop myself from going into a black hole when I find myself getting close to one.
    • …and a working water softener 😉 
    It’s hard to remember this when I’m feeling blue but this last year has truly been my happiest yet. Life’s not always easy and I have so many things I want to be better at but I know I’m a Child of God. I teach that to my primary children and to my own kids and I very much know that it is true. I need to remind myself more often that I am one, too. 

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